Maybe a new chapter in my life... I just have to open the new book before closing the first one.
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And yes.. You broke my heart. I loved you and you told me you loved me too.. You used to say you cared about me, that you
wanted to see me, to hold me in your arms and to kiss me... My heart was about to explode! And the next day I saw you with someone else... I can't even remember how I felt at this moment, the
only thing I remember is that I was completely lost, my head was spinning round and round, my heart was feeling empty. I was in love with you, and know because of you, I can't move forward with
my life. I can't think about someone else, I can't love anymore. But know all I hope is to forget you, to forgive you and to found real love...
After
2years of work... And no success... I think I'll just give up! I'm tired of trying something I can't do!
So let's talk about futur... if I do succeed, I'll go on, and try to end my studies! If I do not! I'll give up and... Leave!
It's been a while I speak of leaving the country for the USA, but now I'm not just talking about it, I'm planning to go!
Saturday 5 november.. I'll try to go to the first meeting! If I likee it, I'll make an appointment :-D !! And hopefully everything's gonna be fine! 'Crossing fingers!'
Anyway... maybe it's the start of a new life? Who knows ?!
<<The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.
When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they hav grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've forced to say good-bye.
I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good-bye, I know we will see each other again in another
life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before.>>
From Noah to Allie
Nicholas Sparks, p.121-122
-The Notebook-
Well I wasn't sure inspiration would come me back someday!
I realize I missed writing! I wrote stuff but couldn't publish them.. I could write and write, everyday, again and again! So now let's go and let myself explain a little bit again! My llife didn't went on the I wanted it to go, but still I'm really happy! Dreams are kinda hidden in my mind to let me live day after day!
Did you ever have somebody to talk too, who with you can be yourself with no fear ? Well I think I just found this person. I do have a lot of friends, there are many people I can talk to, and from almost everything! But I always feel like judged and I have to hide a part of me.... Now it's so different, I sometimes think I'll be ashamed of saying something no really rewarding, but I just let that feeling go away and say what I gotta say! It's like freedom! Not being afraid of the other.. not being afraid of ourself!
Now there is something I can say outloud... I think I really like this person... I didn't want to feel this way becaus I don't know him for a while... But I know so many things about him! We have so many things in common! When we first spoke I didn't know that we would have this weird connection... Maybe it's just an illusion, but I'm pretty sure it's there!
I don't know you to express myself without passing for an idiot! Maybe am I just racing things!? I can't even myself say how I feel! I just know that everytime I know he's not so far, I really wanna see him... When he's close to me I wanna hold him in my arms. If he stares at me, I have to avoid his look, cause my hearts jumps! So I try to lower my eyes, but then I see his smile... You can't imagine how hard it is to contain myself! My first move would be to kiss him if I didn't have the courage of first think about what I should do!
I can tell you, my dreams are really mouvementful!! :)
